The big "D" craziness

Ok, so I know I told everyone that I was on my way to divorce.... Well, David had signed the papers and gave them to me to take to my lawyer. I still have not yet been able give them to the lawyer! It has been over a month! What is wrong with me??? It is the weirdest thing, I just can't make myself. Does anyone think it is possible for David to change, or am I just being crazy??? Why do I feel crazy when I even maybe consider something with David? I don't know... WTF